Chapter 11
Ermanno went rigid, as if struck by lightning. Something inside his chest split open, raw and
leeding. His hand, still holding the lovebird handkerchief against his heart, tightened until the
mbroidered silk bunched between his fingers like a fist. The safehouse. The one place that did
ot officially exist in Family records. The one place he had believed, with the arrogance of a man
who controlled everything, that she would never find.
So she had known that long ago…
She had seen it with her own eyes. Him, with another woman. In the place he had built to keep
is sin separate from his life with her, as though geography could contain betrayal, as though
valls and distance could keep one world from poisoning the other.
Gioia… how much pain she must have been in…
The moment he pictured it, the woman he had cherished above all else, standing there in the
doorway of that safehouse, watching, drowning in that kind of despair, his heart cracked apart
and the room blurred around him. He could see her face as clearly as if she were standing
>efore him. The quiet devastation. The way she would not have screamed, because Gioia never
screamed. She would have pressed her thumb against the inside of her wedding ring finger and
urned away, and that silence would have been worse than any sound she could have made.
Rosa stood in the doorway and watched the Don come apart, and she did not look away, and she
did not offer comfort. She had served Gioia since before the marriage. Her loyalty had never
belonged to this house.
Ermanno was still sharp, even at his worst. Through all that grief, he managed to cast a wide
net, deploying every soldier, every contact, every favor owed to the Santoro name to find me.
But I had been gone for two weeks. Even with his best people, finding me would be no simple
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After I Learned His Love Was a Lie, I Disappeared
ask. I had planned my disappearance the way a woman married to a Don learns to plan
anything: quietly, completely, leaving nothing behind that could be traced. Every photograph
›urned. Every gift reduced to ash. The lovebird handkerchief returned with my hair unthreaded
rom the embroidery, so that only his half remained. I had erased myself from that house the
vay the Family erased people who needed to stop existing, and the symmetry of it was not lost
›n me.
had taken plenty of money with me when I left, enough to live quietly for years without drawing
ittention. I traveled south by coastal ferry, and once I came ashore in a town where the Santoro
lame meant nothing and no Family held territory, I hired a local woman to purchase a small
vaterside cottage on my behalf. I brought on two household attendants for company, women
rom the area who asked no questions because in the deep South, everyone was running from
something.
Along the way, I took in a newborn who had been abandoned on the steps of a parish church.
With a simple change in appearance, I passed myself off as a young widow, and no one looked
wice. The South was full of widows. One more attracted no attention.
The days slipped by one after another, and I taught myself, slowly, how to be a mother. I named
he child Domenico Abate. The surname belonged to no one, connected to no Family, carried no
weight in any territory that mattered. With him beside me, the days felt full and quiet and good..
He would reach for my hand when a stranger’s voice carried too far across the market square,
his small fingers finding mine without fuss, without fear, just trust. And I would hold on, because
his hand in mine was the only anchor I had left, and the only one I wanted.
